1 day ago
Wiii.im.jealous. on We Heart It
Is it so hard to express one self? Try imagine telling someone how you felt, hoping the person would do something to change the situation and the person don’t really care. I hate telling someone that i’m sad, once they know i’m vulnerable they know they can continue doing same shiat over and over again. Here i am, ranting over here because there’s no point telling someone how i felt. I tried to change my thinking perhaps it might be better but no it’s getting worse. I don’t know how to save myself from such misery so i have to keep drinking alcohol again and again to escape from a time being. I don’t wanna think, only alcohol can stops me from thinking. I need more alcohol. Wait no, i need weed. I need that temporary happiness that can make me laugh and sleep. I rather be in a not conscious state man. Omg i don’t wanna think too much i hate myself that i had to put myself in such situation. Is it so hard to be jealous over such shiats? NO. I DON’T KNOW HOW TO STOP BEING JEALOUS. THE DAY WHEN I STOP BEING JEALOUS YOU GOTTA BE AFRAID, THAT’S WHEN I DON’T GIVE A FUCK BOUT YOU ANYMORE. Go ahead and think i’m being stupid or whatever, i’m giving a damn at least. Til then….. Good fucking luck to you.1 day ago
"I looked at everyone and wondered where they came from, and who they missed, and what they were sorry for."
— Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via anditslove)1 day ago
"I want to forget everything you told me. I want to wash away how uncertain you made me. How scared I was of losing you. How I lost you anyway. I don’t want to know how your hands feel or what makes you smile. I don’t want to see you in photos, familiar like a dream I had once or a book I never finished. I don’t want to speak about you in snippets or think about how I behaved. Or know that I still think about it. Or know that you’re not just a lamp or a blade of grass, indistinguishable from the rest."
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